Feeling: Pensive
Listening to: Shut Your Mouth by Garbage
Tasting: Nothing


So we've decided to give up on the computer project. We've done a lot for it, and there's this one thing that we can't figure out, and we've given up. It's 2:41 in the morning now, and we're putting the finishing touches on our stuff (including a note to our teacher explaining our difficulties and what exactly doesn't work in the program).

It's kind of sad for me, because I think this is the first program this term that I've just given up on. I mean, there was the nightmare of the first project, where I didn't know what I was doing at all, but after that I really worked hard. And I can't say that I didn't work hard on this project, because I did, but I'm giving up even though the project isn't really finished, and it's sad. I remember the last project I was doing, I finished after 3 in the morning, long after my partner had said he was giving up. And so, at around 3:30 in the morning, I IM him, saying the project was done, and he thought I was joking. But it was done, more or less, and I remember being really proud. Because there's a sense of accomplishment that comes with finishing something long after everyone else, including you, has decided that there's no way in hell it's possible to finish it. And now, we're giving up. And I know that we worked incredibly hard on this, and I have a final tomorrow that I still have to study for, and there's really not very much we can do at this point, but it's still sad. Because this is my work, and I'm not used to putting my tail between my legs (is that the correct phrase) and just walking away from something that's unfinished. And all I can say is that I hope this is not a trend. I hope that this is the first and last time I'm going to do something like this. Because this feeling of not having accomplished something... I don't like it.

I guess I'm going to go to sleep now...

Wish me luck on my final!

Natalie